Have you ever been in a place in your life where you know change is on the horizon? You know that place where staying as you are, where you are isn’t an option but you aren’t sure where to go. It is that period in life where you have changed and you are deeply uncomfortable in your current situation but you are not sure how to forage ahead; that’s where I’ve found myself lately. So much has changed in my life in the last 5 years and because of such, I have changed. I have grown, discovered, questioned, and a desire for deeper has been ignited in me that is burning with intensity. I have matured past certain situations and even a few people. Things that use to entangle me are easily avoided. I take responsibility and accountability for situations in my life that aren’t so great and for those that are life-giving. You know that place where you are ready to pack it all up and forsake it all, that is where I am now.
“Sometimes in the winds of change we find our true direction.”~Unknown
The winds of change are definitely blowing in my life. I am having life changing breakthroughs in therapy, my sessions with my Life Coach are in sync and affirming, and I feel a shift in my spirit; change is on the horizon. As much as this is a confusing and somewhat intimidating time, it is one of the most exhilarating times in my life. I am finding my footing and identity separate from any role or title that I hold. I am discovering who I am separate from family expectations, traditions, beliefs, and religion. I feel like the bubble that I was so afraid to emerge from has burst and I am free to be.
“Self expression is the harmonizing of your mind and your body with your soul.”~Unknown
Free to be what or whom is still developing, as I unlearn and re-learn I am discovering a Tamika that I didn’t know existed and a Tamika that I would NEVER be allowed to be in my family. I am getting more and more comfortable with standing firm and unwavering in my individuality. I have gotten so courageous and determined to live for TAMIKA that I am willing to let go of ANYBODY who seeks to oppress my growth. I can see where I am headed and it is marvelous. Understand, the journey won’t be easy and I will fall down a few times, but getting there is as important as the goal itself.
“Spiritual growth and spirituality always seem suspect to some people”~Marianne Williamson
On my journey, I am exploring other beliefs. I am working towards studying Buddhism and possibly converting; that is gonna piss a lot of people off. I am understanding and settling into my spirituality apart from organized religion. I am grasping the fact that God is loving and not standing over me waiting to condemn me to hell for my humanness. I am not abandoning my Christianity nor the principles that have helped to mold me but I know with great assurance that there are many paths. Prior to this awakening, I thought being a Christian and Christianity was the only true way.
I could go on and on about my journey thus far, I will conclude by just saying that I know where I have been and it has shaped me and prepared me for what is yet to come. I have radical faith and I wholeheartedly believe that EVERYTHING always works out for me. Onward ♥